The need to scream it out

We are all sucked into a vaccum machine that takes out whatever little bit of energy is left within us. We go on in this fast paced environment every day forgetting ourselves and almost never finding any time to stop and think and make time for what matters most in our lives. We need to stop and put our foot down and respect and love ourselves to be able to go on and enjoy or even just be able to see the beauty that exists out there.

The train continues to move forward in a constant motion...the rythm is slow with some abrupt stops where you can choose to continue or to get off and experience some new surroundings and people. There is a dead end where the train just stops and there are no more stations to stop at. This is when you  know that the end has come and that there is no reversing of time or situations or people...this is the end...you gotta say goodbye and let go...you gotta move on with all the pain in your heart knowing that life will never be the same again...a part of you has been taken and with it has gone the true meaning of love...love in its purest sense...a love that is unconditional...one that you will never know or experience again...life can be harsh...so harsh that with every tear that runs down so much pain is washed away yet a much deeper scar rests in your heart...some people are irreplaceable and this is a fact of life...i will miss you forever mom...you will always be my one and only treasure...love from your little daughter...and yes i always wanted to grow up so fast and be independent but i should have known better that the day will come when i would want to be your little girl whose resting in your arms again...life teaches us the hard way! the train i am on is still going...let's see what's in store till my time comes for it to stop!

Self Expression: Gratitude

Self Expression: Gratitude: Sometimes the sweetest of persons can be thrown off by some shocking events in their lives. Only to realize after all that everything happen...

Gratitude

Sometimes the sweetest of persons can be thrown off by some shocking events in their lives. Only to realize after all that everything happens for a reason and everything is meant to be for the best...It is been a year since I wrote in my blog...just because I was so busy being happy in life that I had no bottled up emotions to let out on paper but then I thought to myself why not write anyway, why not share my deepest thoughts and experiences even the happy ones...why not surround myself with positivity instead of just using my writing as a form of healing from deep scars and hurt in my life...why not share those positive thoughts with the hope that they may help someone else find comfort or strength....so I am here now to say that life is beautiful, full of mysteries and events that can never be explained...we ask ourselves why and sometimes never get any answer but the truth is that everything happens for a reason but not only that, it is also for a GOOD reason...look at the beauty in nature around us. Everything is in harmony, everything works perfectly and was designed with the utmost level of detail that can ever exist...only a supernatural being can offer this kind of artcraft...it amazes me all the time...our lives are like roller coasters of good and bad times...you can seldom find the same harmony that you see in nature....good times seem to last very little but in fact this is the very reason you come to appreciate them so much and make the most out of every second...while bad times will come just to remind us of who we really are and how we should never forget to continue working on ourselves and to improve our lives...i used to strive for happiness but now i have it right at my doorstep...i used to strive for true love but now i found it and it is right in my life...i used to struggle to find hope and now i see it straight into my son's eyes...we are here only on a temporary mission to make a difference and to use our good and bad times and everything we ve learnt to help those around us...it is time to give back and to enjoy life cause happiness reaches its maximum only when we know what it means to make someone else happy...even just by being there:) so be grateful for what you have cause it is only through gratitude that we can appreciate and be fulfilled by every happy moment in our lives:)

Sadness

Sometimes the happiest moments in life can turn into the saddest ones because of some egoistic attitudes we adopt and stick to just to please ourselves. It is so easy to ride our prides and to see things only from one perspective our own!

It is time to be humble and to think of others and how they feel because of our attitude and to help them and support them even if they are being difficult...it is time for tolerance...although not the easiest thing in the world to do with a pride of rock but it is the most important...it is time to accept differences and to stop judging others as good and bad and to criticize their actions and generalize about how they might have or have not become.

Have some patience...try to understand...and this only comes through open communication and really letting go of that damned ego and pride...sometimes it helps to be selfless and to think of others beyond your likes and dislikes! Love is about trying to make someone you love happy even when sometimes what you do may make you unhappyyyy!!!!

Refugee

I am so fortunate to have come accross people in my career that not many people come accross in their life more than once...i had the chance to live with them, to hear their stories and to gain some of their immesurable strength and survival skills which i now carry with me as tools to help me survive difficult moments in my life...every refugee i met added to my life experience and I am grateful to each and everyone of them for adding to my learning and wisdom journey living in this world!

Spiritual emptiness

There's always more to life than our daily routines and socializing...each one of us matters to god, to family, to friends, even to the universe...some people feel fake...they feel they must pretend to fit in...they feel very successful yet still unsatisfied...what this boils down to is really to who we really are and why we are here..only by giving our lives away we find meaning...talent, background, ideas, creativity, what do you do with this?well you can do so much but think of what you can do that can benefit others...think for a second of doing something selfless!

Quiet Revolution

Why do I feel like am going through a quiet revolution?..all the people and experiences coming my way give me signs and messages i would have never thought of in my own little corner....i am starting to open myself to the unlimited richness and beauty of creation which i couldnt see because i was blinded by the egoistic and materialistic drivers of our society...I have some fear of the unknown which i will try to overcome and i will rise to the challenge to prove that nothing is impossible...i am nothing at the end of the day but a human detached from nature...and overwhelmed with the pressure of this fast paced modern world....the closer i get to nature....the more i realize am nothing...the more i realise that our real power as human beings is within and that nothing can stop us to change the world but our own mindset....so i usually hide and choose to stay where i am.... far from the truth....
but to my surprise i am so genuinly and naturally driven to where i should be...in the arms of nature, in the arms of god!

The beauty of giving

Often in life, we ask for certain things, sometimes it's a mere thought or dream but the most amazing thing is that at the least expected moment we realize our wishes and dreams are coming true and we find ourselves living them effortlessly. I have so much gratitude for everything he brings my way...i will rise up to every challenge he presents to me cause at the end i will only return to him knowing that i ll be asked why i didnt do what i had to do when it came my way. as human beings there is always a time to be selfless and to give back to others the very talent that we were granted...for some it maybe inspiration, for others it maybe art or any other talent someone has...for me i know it is the ability to influence others and inspire them towards a common goal...its the ability to give without thinking...its the beauty of giving everything for nothing knowing that by the act of giving you will only get back more than you could have ever imagined...i experienced this once in my life and to this day am in disbelief of how my life has shifted to a great extent over night...i know nothing is impossible and i know that only by giving and helping others...we can survive with dignity and with a purpose...I am grateful to you Allah for everything you have given me...i am grateful for every experience good or bad and out of which so much wisdom you have left with me...help me find my real talent and purpose and i promise to share it with mankind...i love you

All what we look for is a place called home

Like living in a place that has no name...you wonder how long you can survive being so humane...when all that s around you seems so fake....the truth is clear right in front of your eyes but you sometimes chose to shut your eyes ....you wanna fly with the wind...let it carry you away...leave it all behind...start again...but you cant help but be captured by a reality that just drags you more and more into a materialistic set of adventures you re expected to go through...you take the wisdom and carry on but at the end....all what you look for is a place called home... home is so near yet so far...unseen and unknown but you know it s there waiting for you to return so pure like when you were born...but you know you re not ready yet...the power of our creator is that he created us left us in the world to experience all sorts of emotions and situations knowing time after time that we are learning and growing and gaining wisdom to make us ready to face that day....take my hope under your wings...god help me reach my dreams...carry me under your wings...god stand by me...keep me away from all the evils of this world....cleanse my soul and take me in your warm embrace....for there is no eternal love but your love....

Find the beauty within!

Raise your head and look up to the sky...see the beauty of creation...hear this voice thats deep inside of you and...follow your heart...let the wind blow into your face...enjoy the warmth of the sun...look at the beautiful waves...think of heaven and angels...you are loved...you are cared for...you are part of this universe...find your place and move away from the storm...look at the roses surrounding you but beware of the thorns....trust in him for he is the only one who can save you from the storm...reach out and ask for help...its never a bad idea for only HE hears your call at every moment you just need to call...trust in him and you will receive an infinity of only the best of things.

Truth of Purpose

There is a heaven we live in called life...earth...planet...let's experience it together...whisper in my ears like the sound of the soothing waves of the ocean as they wash away the unwanted remains....wash away my fears like these waves and get over your pride...its not about you or about me its about us and its not about pride or being right...its about reaching deeper than on the surface and reading the depth of a soul and knowing how it feels in this world...connect to to my inner self and get beyond what is known...dream away and get to know the real me...there is always uncertainty in the unknown but there is always truth and nothing is more beautiful than the truth no matter how much it hurts as it helps us make the right choices...the choices we should be making but fear as humans....we all exist for the sake of god...our creator...we should live and make choices for the only purpose of our existance which is to return as pure souls to the one and only god who created us. let's experience purity....goodness and live the life...the test...the experience...whatever you wanna call it:)

Standing Still!

A genuine spirit, a heart of gold storms my life with stories old and new bringing flashbacks of a distant past burried in the piles of rubble from years gone by. With so many scars that are yet to heal, i discover truth as i move along this new path...a truth that could have been told but only revealed now...maybe now is right cause it only gives me a push...i have so much strength that can break down mountains but so much weakness that can make me surrender like a loosing warrior taken hostage in a war...

More than ever i realize i was so fucken right to run away and leave behind years of bullshit and so much crap...more than ever i know i m special...this warmth surrounds me and holds me tighter than i ever expected or wanted it to...

Sincerity and passion as deep as the ocean...i feel overwhelmed by the reality and simplicity of it all...i get lost in these killer, innocent looks....YET , i can only run as far as i can to hide but for the very first time in a very long time...i just wanna stand still...i dont wanna run anymore....i just wanna let the waves of the ocean carry me in their warmth...embrace me with their rage as they wash away the remains of a shadow no longer feared.

My breath is taken away by this purity and genuiness of a soul that ran maybe even more than I did yet stands still with so much pride, inner beauty and wisdom i would never be able to explain!

Surrounded with positive energy

This holiday's been heaven!!!!
lots of fun and meeting old friends...the nicest things in life are those that happen spontaneously...its been by far an interesting time for meeting of minds....god knows which roads will unfold in my path...but clearly so many connections exist and are created and so many will be strengthened while others will vanish....i breath and love LIFE and love just love and peace for what they are...there is this harmony that exists between certain human beings and there is no time to waste with non passionate people....passion drives me...passion grows me...and i will always continue to be passionate for as long as i live!!!!

Special

one day you find the years have passed you by...live as if you ll die tomorrow cause tomorrow might never come...i love god and i love life....more than anything or anyone else...family is the most precious thing in the world...without them you are nothing...without them you are alone...dont you run and try to catch up with the stones you ve been collecting...start gathering these gems you ve been neglecting....every year passes like a storm of light that shines on us from above...am hanging out with the most amazing yet detached non intimate people in the world....they re fun to be with but do they really love you? this is a question that no one has answered....am so faithful but how faithful are you!!!! i might not come to that outing i might not be in the social light as much as you want me to be but for sure i ll be there when you really need me to be......love and gratitute are all about acceptance of people as they are and not having expectations to change them...stop trying to change reality....leave away your illusion...and live the reality...there is beauty out there...you just need to touch it and feel it...and you ll only do so by discovering who you really are!!!and by loving every bit of special elements you have....cause you are truly special if not in your own eyes or their eyes..surely in the eyes of GOD:)

Bring back the pharaoes!

why does a football match strike up so much tension and violence to the extent that it changes from being something to enjoy to something that makes you think at the state of affairs in our countries....it s amazing that we unite in happiness and as one people when victorious in a match while we can never unite or direct our positive energy to anything else that has a wider impact on society...it's great to see all these smiles that have been buried for years now by the simple scoring of two goals...people are so tense so frustrated so negative to the extent that nothing brings happiness...we have lost our values and gratitude out of extreme hardship and frustration at what we ve become...where have the pharaos disappeared too? where is the beautiful egypt we once had? the paris or milan of the middle east? i wish we could turn back time and i wish we could direct all our energy in our football to make a more positive imprint on our society...to be there for one another in a foreign country...to be doing things with passion without expecting any pay back...am sure we ll regain our strength and our heritage will stay alive...only if we become one...like we used to be:)

The luckiest man in the world!

someone once told me that the luckiest man in the world is an intelligent man, full of love for life but at the same time full of wisdom with a woman that like a pearl shines through his soul reflecting her own wisdom and love for life on him...so they both like shining stars have an immense power to change the things they can in themselves and in the world!

Can't stop thinking !

Somehow you re like a shadow in my life...someone that comes in for seconds and disappears leaving me with one simple but one of the most beautiful things...a huge smile that never leaves my face...i cant stop thinking about the energy you ve brought into my life...every time i look at you i feel you re with me...although you re not...i feel there's so much we can do together but i am scared of all the uncertainty...false evidence appearing real...you re just real...i know you re deep although you dont show it! but i know and that s enough for me!

Too Good to be True

You do tick all the boxes as one of my close friends says...you leave me no room to say no...there's a truth behind our encounter...there is a true, transparent love waiting to grow...but there is always a challenge...age, beleifs maybe...time will tell if these are real obstacles to happiness. for what is happiness...but to be with THE someone special in your life and to enjoy the bits and pieces of your life...what is happiness but to be fulfilled by the simple presence of a deep soul who understands and is sympathetic with what goes on in your life...am happy with the life i have and grateful to you for sending me this angel...i wish all people had this heart of gold...i wish they wouldnt take no for an answer like you do....you ve turned my life upside down...and made me think in the most unconventional way....you re my life my everything! I will teach myself to grow and to live the moment...to live for today...so you can keep your shinning star lighting every good moment...i love the respect for my individuality that you give me...this is truly special and I wish that all the good in this life comes your way:)thank you for crossing my path...for you are surely special to have managed to stay in my life although i tried to shut the door more than once in your face...thanks for holding on and valuing every beautiful thing about me...and everything that brought us closer!

Liberation

I feel liberated and free...i feel the beauty of life...i know tomorrow will only be better with its good and bad:) i know i ve done my best and have no heavy baggage to carry with me...i have gratitude for all the positive things that came my way in 2009....thank you..thank you...thank you...couldnt want more from life...even the bad... i know better will come...patience and gratitude i think are the keys to happiness...so simple yet so complicated...but they are the real path to serenity and peace of mind....:)